unanswered questions

there are zillions of questions in my mind! there are millions of doubts which need to be clarified...they bother me..the thoughts smother me!
and am left with unanswered and unsolved theories ......

1) society? what is it? do we live for it or do we form it? are we just part of it?
when a woman is beaten by her husband...society doesnt bother....it may just create a hype for few hours or days and the story is back to normal...
when a man is struggling for job and having problems running in his family...society never helps him! he has to struggle and fight for his own existence and at the end...he is the winner or loser and the surroundings do play no role!

2) when i say that i want to adopt a baby and find another reason for my life...am asked not to...as i cant be accepted! my question is accepted by whom? people around me? those who never bother when i need a shoulder? those who have no clue about how i am living or struggled for my life? relatives, who don't even know my age and what i need in life? who are just interested in whom i have an affair with or how much property am i actually saving?

3) why cant we choose and live with a partner (if at all essential) on our own and go for it? why do we need to go for tailor made- horoscope matched persons and live with obligation! why cant marriage come after we live-know-understand each other and see how it is like rather than breaking a marriage? why are we always stopped from doing so saying that "you are not in US and it doesnt go well here" kind of statements?

4) why dont we have the choice to say yes to what we like and no to what we dont! why do we need to throw a fake smile and get upset in life?

5) why cant we create our own paths in whatever we like than actually settling for those dusted paths created by unknown travellers?

6) why dont people understand that there are still good people existing in this world and all are not buggers who just mess around with anyone they come across...

7) why cant we have individual choices and live with humanity than getting involved in others life for no use?

these are just some of many.....

love ke baare mein!

when every tom, dick, harry, rita, meeta and ....can speak about love...why cant I? so I am giving it a try...whats love?

1) for me there is nothing called true love or false love..there is only love...

2) i love many people in this world...but i am not in love with any

3) i love many things too...you see..sort of non-living love

4) i believe once i am in love.....i will never leave him till my death..but to fall in love is a big thing for me..

5) one would be faking if he/she says "pyar sirf ek hi baar hota hai.." naa....we love and also fall in love with more than 2-3 people in life time...its just that we dont tend to express or be with them for life time...

6) its not necessary that we love the one we get married to...every married couple is not a pair of soulmates...

7) its not necessary that we give our love an ultimate destination called marriage....we can still be in love and not get married...bonding keeps us close irrespective of the distance we live...

8) once the love is mutual...no matter what..it never dies...its eternal...but birth of such love is rare..

9) love at first sight does happen....but its legitimacy is a question!

10) sometimes we fall in love in first instance...sometimes we never fall in love -even if we are together and live close for decades

11) for those who are in love...they can understand the difference between lovemaking and having sex...

12) there is never a breakup in love...we just tend to get apart..yet we are deeply connected to each other and the bonding lives forever..

13) love happens to anyone irrespective of age, sex (yes it happens for some people..and we have to respect them!), financial status, caste, creed, complexion and all....

14) love means no business...its a spiritual and eternal connection which comes without pros and cons...

15) love never happens to those who are highly infatuated, as they feel its love each time they come across a man/woman

16) when we love ourself...we can/and are authorised to love others

17) love means no hatred and there are no killings/attacks/abuses....you dont tend to hurt your lover in any-which way!

18) there is no room for dislike and non-compromise in love...it happens when you want to do business..not love..

19) you can have multiple partners..yet love only one person....(this applies to some....no debate over this issue..any sensible person can understand what i mean)

20) love cant be explained..it can only be experienced...

i think i gave enough gyaan on love....i mean every word...and this is what i think...

unimportant emotions

well i see people sending friend requests on various networking sites..
some add just for the sake of it...some add to know others...some add as they know each other...some add for other reasons....whatever the reason be....our friends' list keeps growing day by day....they are hardly our friends yet we are compelled to call them our friends...

how about removing them from the list? many people, very conveniently remove them...
some remove as they are pestered or spied on....some remove as they find some differences...some remove as they feel its not important...
why even add when you dont want them?
even i removed and added many people like that....but sometimes i wonder why i re-add or or remove them? i dont feel really comfortable when i dont see myself in others friends' list....

now comes the list in messengers....we have tons of them in our lists...we seldom talk/chat with them....yet we maintain a list for the sake of it...why even keep them when you have no time to atleast say 'hi' once in a year on your own? its not a wardrobe! why decorative pieces when you give no importance? i wish not to have such people in my list who never care to say hi....who cares ya...leave em for good!

now comes response to email....we keep fwding mails and messages....acknowledging them is ones own decision....the recipient has the liberty to acknowledge it or not.....but when you dont want to do it for life time...then why even receive mails? why not just block them rather than making the mailer- a fool?

now comes calls.....some people never build a habit of calling back....if you never call thats different....but if you are not responding to a call.....then why not pick once and just inform them that you dont want anymore calls?

i am not writing this mail out of frustration or whatever....but i am trying to scream that there is some basic etiquette which we have to follow...else i see no difference between us and other species....some emotions are still left in this world and its better if we understand them....time and work kill us for good...priorities keep changing....but not our instinct.....its better to be straight enough than be a hypocrite and fake oneself.....

some updates

haven't updated my blog since a long time....so on my readers' request, i am posting some updates here

1) was down with viral fever, flu, cramps, and what not! enjoyed everything but swine flu. enjoyed the pamper by mom, sis and best friends who kept track of me 24x7. relished tons of coconut water and yeah shed some weight...the antibiotics were yuk and they made me sick...

2) our neighbour Mrs Rao lost her eye. Poor lady, she has this habit of spying on us each time our door bell rings....so, once while she was on job with an eye in the 'magic eye' of the door...her door bell rang..and in a hurry she pulled her face out and one of her eyes got stuck in it...poor woman...heard she is managing with only one eye now! the other eye is anyways on job....

3) went to kaminey and left the theater in the middle. thanks to the crappy wontons that i had before going to the movie...and the loud music and nonsensical drama....i had bad headache and puked on the pretty lady next to me in the theater (there was pinch of J also) ...and i came running out of the theater...

4) didnot shop at all....am running out of money and now my dad is keeping a track of each and every penny...he also has the list of dresses that i have now! gaawwwddd...i just asked him for another cupboard and he took away my atm card

5) learnt making chapathis...now i can make them without roasting/burning....they can be relished with any curry ordered from outside...am yet to learn how to make curries...and i dont think i can (want to) actually learn

6) am speeding up the process to find the man of my dreams...so sleeping a lot nowadays...

7) now am reading 3 books at a time....yeahh have been reading them since 4 months....

8) have stopped being online...as i feel...i have bugged everyone enough...time to rejuvenate my gtalk/yahoo messenger list

i think....i am done...more in my next post...

horrorscopes

horrorscopes... predict everything (bhoot -bhavishyat -varatamaan..) are one of those favourites for elders and youngsters too.

i have been facing this horror since my birth and now as 'woman about to get married', its been a boon and a bane for me in many ways.
when am not liked, the guy's mother/father informs my dad that horoscopes dint match while my dad gets it checked and the pundit says they did match...hahaha...such a lame excuse..

when guy and myself like each other..these horoscopes do come as nightmares..
i still wonder about those silly astronomical things far above the sky who dictate our lives..arey yar..maine telescope say bhi unhe kabhi nahi dekha...tho yeh budh grah aur shukr grah kaha se aagaye mere zindagi mein? (or why dont some astronimcal scientist sue those kundli makers for misusing and misinterpreting the celestial bodies?)

yeahh another thing is being manglik ..manglik people want to get married to only mangliks...if it is a manglik girl..she can marry a tree, donkey or a monkey and then the non manglik boy! you might be knowing that technically abhishek is aishwarya's third husband...she was married to some neem tree then some ferns or crotons or some animal and then to abhishek...whooa...tho abhi abhishek ko kuch nahi hoga? (PETA people sleep at this hour....zzzzzzzz)

and then the gotras...people from same gotra are considered siblings...now yeh kaheka funda hai...you dont even know the traces of the boy ...you meet him somewhere across the globe..you like him...then you realise he is supposed to be your brother and you can not marry him! coz you have the same gotras...i need a breaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk (rakshabandhan should be celebrated with them also)

then the gun (gana)-atleast 23 of them should match for the boy and girl...arey yar...kundli milaake kitne log pyar karte hai....(imagine people carrying their kundlis in their wallets and handbags and ask...hey dude whats your kundli?)
i think people who run programmes across the world need to understand that compatibility is also a major thing!

i know horoscopes are essential...but not to an extent that you miss on a nice person or a family in this stupid process....let it be just horoscope...not a horrorscope to buy/get married to nightmares in life!

man..i miss you...

I am no fan of YSR..neither did i support him during elections. I never had a good impression on him and I always feel he made an upper middle class's life- hell. We have stopped buying toor dal (Rs80+/kg) and forgot the taste of some vegetables...the ever rising prices in his legacy never impressed us. I am talking loud..many of you might be thinking loud.... some of you might never want to say anything. but there is one thing that always mesmerised me about this 60+ youngman..that is his charisma..he won the hearts...i always told my parents that YSR surely knows how to offend before going for defence....he surely predicts the steps far before and thats an essential quality of a poilitician. he knows how to win - while losing the battle....he knows how to spring back if he lost the war....he has the guts and he showed them. his machoism is unbeatable and i bet he is a true MAN... i am pretty sure he is irreplaceable and we lost him!
RIP YSR...we surely miss you (atleast I miss you)

bday yoho...

its my birthday again...time flew without giving a notice and i admit, i am thrilled and amazed by the pace with which my life is moving. now i am 27. oh..noo...i have no issues in revealing my age and i feel proud to be 27..lol...

i started receiving calls from 23 AUG and trust me i cut 4 cakes back to back. loads of messages. my 1GB memory card phone ran out of space..and i had to keep my mobile on charging continuously.
i felt like a princess and the day was mine. the treasure hunt by my sis, vamsi, sasi and trinadh, gifts and love by TP, everything was amazing. Mr RK made it a point to meet me..and Mr C flew down next day to wish me...the 27 gifts that he gave as part of my bday are just awesome..and what do i need in life...its been 4 days already....and am still getting calls and wishes...let it be belated thing...people are wishing me...
above all..i would also like to wish my mom'happy rebirth day'...as it was a rebirth for her when i came into this world...
everything in my life is special..and i have no complaints...
love you all

just a click away

i always wished there was someone who can do everything for me....like a genee..sorts...just a phone call away and there everything is at your feet...booooooom..
my cousin also came up with such an idea and now he is donning the role of genee to everyone...
yeahh he created this website http://www.egrocerymart.com/

the groceries are just a click away and i bet you can place order by lazing on your bed!
thanks anna...you are a gem...hope you come to hyderabad soon...
for lazy bums like me..you are a wishy-washy person...
folks out there...go through this and grab your stuff...

a face that i see

the face that i see is bold and beautiful
many emotions beneath the eyes
the strong will that is seen is awesome
but the shyness behind is seldom realised

attitude personified it is
arrongance is the thing that is seen
rudeness is what shown
love and affection are the sheen
ego throws you away
but it is the self determination that is unseen


the beautiful smile that it has
words beneath the lips are never said
the lovely curves are beautiful to look at
the pain inside the body is unknown
a mixture of too many emotions it is
warmth and care are its own

seems to be simple to read
but the pages are not clearly written
while everyone thinks it is quite open
no one knows whats hidden
proudness is poured out
it is self-sufficient smitten

a face that i see everyday
many thoughts and many questions
thats the face that i try to read
a face in the mirror that it is!

reason for divorce is marriage!

am i not right? the very reason for divorce is a marriage! no marriage..no divorce!
but its not always right too...many of our parents are still living in harmony..then why not our generation?
is it ego? finance? compatibility? extra marital affair? mental illness? reasons are numerous and not one will accept the fault of ones own!
but then again..i am told my thought is wrong! may be i was wrong....marriage as an institution is set for us and we tend to move away from it by shunning the norms!
basically i see it as loss of trust and a sense of insecurity! when one can overcome it...am sure anyone can live with it!
may be even i need to overcome it asap..or else...i gotta be living with my eternal singleton status!
hopefully i would find someone worth living with... soon!
not losers for sure!